The incredible amount of work I’m doing sometimes make me think …
… about the fact that I’m forgetting myself.

It’s not easy to be me.

I fulfill my life with responsibilities,
and often I carry other’s people problems over my back too.

Indeed that happens occasionally in this months.
I putted myself inside an Iron Maiden,
a poisonous-spiked wall of steel to hide into.

The point is that day by day I’m preparing myself to a big project.
Life.

The point is that I don’t see an end to this preparation,
and at the same time I know that there is an end to life.

So when comes the time to live just for yourself?

That feels like an endless stairway.

I published 146 new pictures and also two new galleries. The pictures as always are here: Recent Photos. The two new galleries are:

• Fashion and Editorial: a growing gallery (in wich I will move a lot of pictures I published elsewere this year). It’s very hard to decide how to publish pictures and when I started, in January, I did some errors. As Donald Foster said: “No one who cannot rejoice in the discovery of his own mistakes deserves to be called a scholar“
• Old and Young: an experiment about very old people putting childs near to them. I started this experiment in my grandma’s hospice. In the future I hope to work more in hospices and also insane asylums.

P.S.: The picture of Elio was done when I met him, at “Apriti IED”, in 26 June.
This is me with him and Fabio:

It’s a lot of time that I don’t speak about my work.
Even if I’m working a lot, more than 14 hours each day, since January.

Part of my work actually is photography, and this post is about that…
… because in a week or two I will publish more than 200 pictures.

They will be divided into two parts…:

• … the personal stuff (as always) will be published in this website.
  I remember to everyone that I never published my work as photographer on this website…
  … the pictures you can find here are just “personal” stuff.
• The high quality stuff or pictures I took for work reasons will be water-marked and will be published in my new website: www.alvisenicoletti.com

The new pictures are about:

• Fashion shooting
• Dance pictures (biennale danza, tango, and various theater stuff)
• Internals, architecture, and other stuff

I love storms.

I love to stare at them.
Because they recall strong and deep sensations of danger.

I like to observe seagulls while they fly against a strong wind, and challenge it with their peerage.
Yesterday I saw a lot of them that was doing so, and the wing was amazingly strong.
But I hadn’t the time to take pictures.

I hate this things, I would like to have more free time but in this period I can’t stop.
Never.

However I was walking slow, challenging the wind myself, and letting it put away my bad thoughts, and my past.
What I like of this period of my life is that for the first time I’m starting to live the present, and sometimes the future.

That’s important.
For my whole life I was stuck in my past.
Depressed people lives in their past.

Neurotic and Anxious people lives the present.

Maybe one day I will become a happy person?
I’m starting to look into the future.
And I like to do so.
I also like what I see.

When I think about my future, now, I look at the sky and I dip into the light.
I leave the sun impress my eyes, like a film while taking a picture with a photo-camera.
The sensation is good, and gets my eyes dazzled for some seconds.

While I close my eyes, I walk straight, blind.
And I start to elaborate the information that the sun gave me.
While doing so, I try to decipher the symbols my dazed eyes’ background.
And in this moment, I see my future.

Some weeks ago, I was thinking about how much I am changing.
Thinking about myself some years ago it seemed a Revolution to me.

The point is… that I’m always myself.
I’m not changed.

Thinking about myself, some years ago…
I’m just more determined.
I know what I want.
And I’m ready to do anything to obtain it.

Now I know where, for me,
is the right place to be,
in the right moment.
And I feel ready to shoot.

Isn’t that what I already wrote about photography?
Doesn’t life itself work like that?

In the end…
… I love the quiet sunsets after a storm.

At the end I decided to create an entire gallery for Luca.

Whoever haves pictures of Luca that want to share with the world, can send them to me at adopt_luca@nokao.com …

That’s actually the gallery:

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